Difficult Moments, seek God; Painful Moments, trust God

Our Sophia has been having a hard time the past couple of weeks. It started out with sad cries every night and slowly progressed to an hour or so of screaming...every night. Then she stared to break out with little red dots all over her face and tummy. The final straw for this mom was the move to all day screaming fits... it makes you feel helpless and frankly I wanted to pull my hair out. First we thought she had acid reflux...nope. Then we thought dairy, so I cut out all dairy which seemed to help but the crying started again a week later...next solution please. Conclusion:she is allergic to my breast milk or something that is in it, as well as dairy. I have cut out everything from dairy,spicy,caffeine, even some veggies but nothing seemed to work. So after seven weeks of crying, very little sleep, and frustration we have but our sweet girl on soy formula. This has been one of the hardest decision for me but it has to be about what is best for Sophia.
My mom put it all in prospective for me a couple of nights ago while I was having an EO (emotional outburst). She looks at me while I was making Sophia's second bottle of formula and crying and says I have never known you to be so selfish. You would think that would be a slap in the face but it wasn't. She was right and it took her saying that for me to get a grip on myself. THANKS MOM!

As I fought the idea of putting my girl on formula and not wanting to believe God put my mom in my face. I realize now if I had stopped for twenty min. to talk to him instead of trying to deal with it all alone it might not have been so confusing, hurtful, or sad.
Lesson learned: Difficult Moments, see God; Painful Moments, trust God.

The transition is getting easier but it still makes me sad to know that I couldn't give Sophia what she needed.

You would not believe the change in Phia(Isabella's nickname for her). She only wakes up twice at night instead of three or four times. She falls asleep in her swing/bounce seat, her rash is gone, and she only cries a little at night. It is much need peace for her and me.